I’m sick.
I’m sick and tired of this.
This stupid bull shit
These mind games
This flu. I’m ready to fucking explode.
When I need him most, He leaves
I love when he has fun with his friends
But it came at a bad time
I’m horribly depressed and wanting to kill
I just want to see him.
I remember this feeling.
This feeling of wanting to be together
All the time, everyday.
Being far apart.
It’s nothing new to me
I just don’t want us to grow apart
I know we are only half an hour away on foot
But when you love someone this much
It seems like decades away.

My self esteem has taken a major nose dive
Plummeting to lows I’ve never see before
I guess it’s the flu talking
I believe every word he says….
Accept for when he says I’m beautiful
I cant buy it. Not from him
Not from anyone.
It’s just who I am.
That’s all.

I need to stop staring at the same god damn walls and get my ass out.
I’m getting sick of this.
I’m sick of everything.
I’m just
Plain
Sick.